most actors toil in obscurity,
never stepping into the spotlight.
but if you hone you craft, work diligently,
you might just find yourself cast in a role of a lifetime.
and so, when you play the role long enough,
would you eventually turn into the person you're playing,
and truly let go behind the mask of social acceptance?

I guess I'll never be.

My father might not approve, but I'm no longer his disciple. I'm a master now, an idea transcended into life. And so this is my new path, which is a lot like the old one, only mine. To stay on that path, I need to work harder, explore new rituals, evolve. Am I evil? Am I good? I'm done asking those questions. I don't have the answers. Does anyone?

The future might hold something different for me. Its possible I'm just fooling myself. But I'm wiling to take the risk.

It's an odd sensation to be experiencing what might be called hope for the first time in my life and at the same time I suddenly find myself weighing the benefits of electrocution or lethal injection. But here I am.

Alright!
New year's day!
Had a blast yesterday although my friends can't come for the countdown.
So I joined Halim.
Met up at around 3, ate and looked at gadgets and shit.
Played pool, black jack dealer and counted down.
We had no mobile reception near the esplanade.
And we couldn't find hadi.
Well, that's an unresolved issue.
As I counted down and watch the fireworks, I wondered if the fireworks for the world cup final would be any nicer! Haha
After that I went wild; wishing everyone along the bridge a happy new year.
And guess what?
The most fun guys are gay indian men, preferably of foreign nationality where drinking from the tap water is as good as drinking your own pee.
After that we went to play pool again.
Did some crazy black magic shit.
Haha.
Halim and I did play well.
Went home around 7am.
We were so late that we're home early.
Got some scolding from my mom.

Well.
My new year resolution is to spend more time with my family, be more independent, use a task schedule, improve my pool and bowling skills, starting an awesome youtube channel, try competitive bodybuilding among many others.

That's a lot of shit to live up to. So happy new year everyone!

"why wouldn't you like to be an egg? well, you get only laid once. it takes 5 minutes to become hard. and the only thing that is sitting on your face is your mum."

"what do men do after they had sex? ... 80% are driving home."

"what do airplanes and women have in common? ... both have a cock-pit."

"what is the difference between 'like' and 'love'? ... if you like, you spit. if you love, you swallow!"

Went to Clarke Quay today. Found Asia's 1st sub zero bar the eski bar. Had a hard time finding it thought. It was fucking freezing cold inside there. And we found a mac that actually broadcasts EPL matches on the 2nd floor. Nice. And on the way back there was this prostitute staring at me like I was a fuckin ice cream or something. I'm not an expat you know.

Earlier that day, I went to gym where my grip failed during my last set of shrugs. Looks like I need to get wrist straps. Then I met up with Halim and went to yishun. Didn't catch sherlock. Haha. 10 bucks is a lil too much I guess? Went to see some art at the esplanade and was late for a magic show at the flyer. Oh well. A lot of ideas in my head and I have to put pen to paper. I'm bloody tired.

Glory Man Utd!